Light Fades

Have not felt so good the last few days. Anxious, awkward and uncomfortable.

The clocks went back yesterday, and today from early afternoon, the light started to fade.

Need to get back into my routine now half term is over.

This morning, I did Somerfield, chemist, library, and a walk.

Rain Rain Go Away

If it's raining, it must be Tuesday.

The streets outside are recovering from a night of torrential rain, slowly picking themselves up, while the remains of the wind flaps the leaves about.

Am feeling OK, getting stuff done, not feeling too bad in the mornings.

Went for appointment at JobCentre Plus yesterday, in connection with my receiving Incapacity Benefit, and it was OK. It was tipping it down yesterday too. Managed to talk reasonably coherently for half an hour with Matthew, my personal adviser.

Blood

Blood test for lithium levels yesterday. Am used to all this now. Waiting room full of old people. Guy who took my blood looked like roadie - ponytail, dressed in black, slightly large - he's getting better at the blood thing too.

Raining.

I don't mind Mondays

The beginning of a second week of feeling a bit brighter, without really being sure why. Am walking more, but don't really know if this is a factor, or just a result of feeling better. Today brought a mixture of watery sunshine and watery drizzle.

While waiting for monster queue at docs to dwindle, sat by river watching ducks and reading paper, quite enjoying the chaos in the surgery carpark. Parking situation compounded by arrival of an ambulance which blocked off three parking spaces.

News: North Dakota Tests Residents

Apparently it's snowing already in North Dakota:

Carquinez News: North Dakota Tests Residents

Woke up this morning

Felt a bit brighter last night, and OK this morning. Went early for blood test, ( have to take warfarin to prevent blood clots) then ran some errands in town. Going to work time, and not many people about. Bought some bananas.

Back home, under cold skies and grey light, it felt like it was getting dark before midday. Gloomy. But, don't seem to be unduly affacted by the influence of pathetic fallacy. Which is good.

More jobs at home, then some time on the computer.

Depression in the forties

America had it bad in the thirties, and needed a New Deal and a war to recover; my depression arrived in my forties, and they weren't roaring, or much of a success, health-wise. In my lighter moments, I like to think of it as a 21st century depression, caused by pre-millenial stress. Or something.